As I sit here, staring at my to-do list, I suddenly realized: I have five weeks left to summer. FIVE. Even though the time is passing and the day of my departure from Seattle nears, I still have FIVE weeks left to burn and freckle my fair skin, study (two finals next week and one in a few weeks!), read, relax, enjoy my wonderful friends, eat berry pies, to drink PNW coffee, water, wine and beer...
A few days ago, I had this Debby downer moment...I've begun to realize how badly I want to be in my own apartment, with my things, with my own time and schedule, and working toward something I am passionate about, with the freedom to do as I will...and all of those things are in Boston. But eventually they will be in Seattle. And I don't really want to be in Boston (as much as I love it there and the wonderful people who await me...seriously, how lucky am I? My brothers, my sister-in-law, two of my best friends from college all live in Boston! Or near enough to it). But I want to be in Seattle. Which could be semi-permanently, obviously, because I don't really know where I want to be or should be at this point. Colorado is still calling to me sweetly, and a long trip to Europe is always on the back burner of my mind...not to mention southern Africa, where a special needs hospital pulls at my heart.
As the beloved TF used to quote, "this too shall pass." Eventually this particular period of life will be over, and I'll be moving on to another one. Please don't misunderstand me, I do love the period I'm in right now. I think, though, that the Someone who knows me well is lighting a fire under my feet, preparing me for the next step, just as He did when He prepared me for moving to Boston a few years ago...it always starts as a slight discomfort which slowly develops into a temperately burning passion and desire...oxymoron? Maybe. But my whole being is an oxymoron, let's be honest.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
returning to boston
just last week i was listing reasons to a friend regarding why i don't want to return to boston....but today i wanted to list some reasons i do want to return to boston, because, let's face it...i'm going back.
erin: my best friend from college now LIVES in boston, a mere 25 minute walk from me. and her beautiful baby. and her wonderful husband. so really, i cannot wait to be reunited with her.
janae: she has returned from the homeland and will be on the same coast with me, finally! i will be able to see her so often, it almost makes me cry, because i have missed her so much.
paul & lisa & nick: i miss them.
cambridgeport: this lovely neighborhood will be home to me soon enough. besides my excitement to live with my two new roommates d&s, i will also be in the most perfect location...25 minutes from erin, a short T ride from paul at work, paul & lisa & nick at home, close to central/harvard/porter squares, close to my new favorite used bookstore, relatively close to bu sargent, close to the river....ah, i am so excited to walk by the river.
new friends in boston: i miss them too! i want to see them all.
fall in boston. leaf-peeping on the kangamangus highway.
winter in boston. the patriots. gosh, i love football. oh! hockey! bu hockey games.
the bu pub. the sam adams brewery!
the t...i miss you, T! your crowded, overly warm rides...oh how i miss you.
erin: my best friend from college now LIVES in boston, a mere 25 minute walk from me. and her beautiful baby. and her wonderful husband. so really, i cannot wait to be reunited with her.
janae: she has returned from the homeland and will be on the same coast with me, finally! i will be able to see her so often, it almost makes me cry, because i have missed her so much.
paul & lisa & nick: i miss them.
cambridgeport: this lovely neighborhood will be home to me soon enough. besides my excitement to live with my two new roommates d&s, i will also be in the most perfect location...25 minutes from erin, a short T ride from paul at work, paul & lisa & nick at home, close to central/harvard/porter squares, close to my new favorite used bookstore, relatively close to bu sargent, close to the river....ah, i am so excited to walk by the river.
new friends in boston: i miss them too! i want to see them all.
fall in boston. leaf-peeping on the kangamangus highway.
winter in boston. the patriots. gosh, i love football. oh! hockey! bu hockey games.
the bu pub. the sam adams brewery!
the t...i miss you, T! your crowded, overly warm rides...oh how i miss you.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Remade.
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
Friday, July 8, 2011
run in the night
Janae just sent me this song and I really wanted to share it.
The line "You formed my knees to bend" really struck a cord with me. Just recently I've been praying to ask Christ to refresh my passion for prayer...it's been dulled over the years, so I've been asking Him to form it for me. This line spoke to my soul...
I know who I am
Once I was nameless, alone and you found me
You formed my knees to bend
You call me Beloved, I am perfection
All my failures won’t condemn me
Or leave me paralyzed and bound
When I’m at my worst
Your Love, it finds me first
By you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
For I am such a man
Seized by the power of a great affection
No matter where I am
Peace spreads below me in every direction
When evil sets the war upon me
I won’t stumble, I won’t fall
Though they do their worst
Your love has found me first
For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
Hide me in the shelter of
Keep me in the cover of
Lead me in the light of your love
Hide me in the light of your love
No matter where I am
Whom shall I fear
Lead me in the light
The line "You formed my knees to bend" really struck a cord with me. Just recently I've been praying to ask Christ to refresh my passion for prayer...it's been dulled over the years, so I've been asking Him to form it for me. This line spoke to my soul...
I know who I am
Once I was nameless, alone and you found me
You formed my knees to bend
You call me Beloved, I am perfection
All my failures won’t condemn me
Or leave me paralyzed and bound
When I’m at my worst
Your Love, it finds me first
By you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
For I am such a man
Seized by the power of a great affection
No matter where I am
Peace spreads below me in every direction
When evil sets the war upon me
I won’t stumble, I won’t fall
Though they do their worst
Your love has found me first
For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
Hide me in the shelter of
Keep me in the cover of
Lead me in the light of your love
Hide me in the light of your love
No matter where I am
Whom shall I fear
Lead me in the light
Thursday, June 23, 2011
need a movie suggestion?
I've not blogged for quite some time, but I decided that I really wanted to mention some movie suggestions, if you're looking for any.
Taking Chance, starring Kevin Bacon--don't let KB throw you off, it is an AMAZING movie and definitely not one of his typical movies.
The Young Victoria, starring Emily Blunt--I've already mentioned this one, but I believe this may be one of the most touching historical dramas.
Jaws, starring Richard Dreyfuss--"Matt Hooper: Ha, ha - they're all gonna die." Nuff said.
Bridesmaids, starring Kristin Wiig--I almost can't believe I'm recommending it, but I honestly loved it.
Taking Chance, starring Kevin Bacon--don't let KB throw you off, it is an AMAZING movie and definitely not one of his typical movies.
The Young Victoria, starring Emily Blunt--I've already mentioned this one, but I believe this may be one of the most touching historical dramas.
Jaws, starring Richard Dreyfuss--"Matt Hooper: Ha, ha - they're all gonna die." Nuff said.
Bridesmaids, starring Kristin Wiig--I almost can't believe I'm recommending it, but I honestly loved it.
Monday, May 30, 2011
beantown.
It's hard to believe, but my first year in Boston will be over very soon! I'll be heading home for a few months, and though I can hardly wait, I'm a little sad too! Boston has become a home, a place near to my heart, and beside the humidity, I will miss it this summer! I am excited to be here all next summer, but really can hardly wait to be home in Redmond!!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
packing, cleaning, moving, more packing!
this week marks the 6th time I've moved out of an apartment/house/dorm room in 6 years. I've moved so many times recently, it's hard to believe...I counted the other day and realized that my average length of stay in any given place has been 8-9 months, with the one rare exception of 14 months my junior to senior year of college.
moving so often is a blessing and a curse. a blessing because it forces you to think about what you own, how much you own, and how much you really need. a curse because you have to find moving boxes every 9 months, move away just as you learn about a neighborhood and become a part of it, or become comfortable in your own room.
i'm excited to move to a new apartment, a new location in boston (cambridge actually because we found out today we got our new apartment!!!), be closer to erin et al., be in a really cool neighborhood which feels less like the big city and more like where you know your neighbors, have a deck, etc etc.
but moving this much has made me think: will i ever be content to live in one place for longer than 9 months? will i become bored if i try to stay longer? or will i be happy? does it even matter? i'm not sure it does...i'm not sure it doesn't. what i do know is that i am moving home to redmond for the summer, back to cambridge for the year and sometime after september 2012, moving again. maybe then i'll settle down?
or maybe not.
moving so often is a blessing and a curse. a blessing because it forces you to think about what you own, how much you own, and how much you really need. a curse because you have to find moving boxes every 9 months, move away just as you learn about a neighborhood and become a part of it, or become comfortable in your own room.
i'm excited to move to a new apartment, a new location in boston (cambridge actually because we found out today we got our new apartment!!!), be closer to erin et al., be in a really cool neighborhood which feels less like the big city and more like where you know your neighbors, have a deck, etc etc.
but moving this much has made me think: will i ever be content to live in one place for longer than 9 months? will i become bored if i try to stay longer? or will i be happy? does it even matter? i'm not sure it does...i'm not sure it doesn't. what i do know is that i am moving home to redmond for the summer, back to cambridge for the year and sometime after september 2012, moving again. maybe then i'll settle down?
or maybe not.
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