my old friend.

My old friend, I recall
The times we had are hanging on my wall
I wouldn't trade them for gold
Cause they laugh and they cry me and
somehow sanctify me
And they're woven in the stories I have told
And tell again

My old friend I apologize
For the years that have passed since the
last time you and I
Dusted off those memories
But the runnin' and the races and the
people and the places
there was always somewhere else i had to be
And time gets thin, my old friend

Don't know why, don't know why
Don't know why, don't know why

My old friend this song's for you
Cause a few simple verses was the least that I could do
To tell the world that you were here
'Cause the love and the laughter will live on long after
All of the sadness and the tears
We'll meet again my old friend

Goodbye, Goodbye
Goodbye, Goodbye

My old friend

summer.

As I sit here, staring at my to-do list, I suddenly realized: I have five weeks left to summer. FIVE. Even though the time is passing and the day of my departure from Seattle nears, I still have FIVE weeks left to burn and freckle my fair skin, study (two finals next week and one in a few weeks!), read, relax, enjoy my wonderful friends, eat berry pies, to drink PNW coffee, water, wine and beer...

A few days ago, I had this Debby downer moment...I've begun to realize how badly I want to be in my own apartment, with my things, with my own time and schedule, and working toward something I am passionate about, with the freedom to do as I will...and all of those things are in Boston. But eventually they will be in Seattle. And I don't really want to be in Boston (as much as I love it there and the wonderful people who await me...seriously, how lucky am I? My brothers, my sister-in-law, two of my best friends from college all live in Boston! Or near enough to it). But I want to be in Seattle. Which could be semi-permanently, obviously, because I don't really know where I want to be or should be at this point. Colorado is still calling to me sweetly, and a long trip to Europe is always on the back burner of my mind...not to mention southern Africa, where a special needs hospital pulls at my heart.

As the beloved TF used to quote, "this too shall pass." Eventually this particular period of life will be over, and I'll be moving on to another one. Please don't misunderstand me, I do love the period I'm in right now. I think, though, that the Someone who knows me well is lighting a fire under my feet, preparing me for the next step, just as He did when He prepared me for moving to Boston a few years ago...it always starts as a slight discomfort which slowly develops into a temperately burning passion and desire...oxymoron? Maybe. But my whole being is an oxymoron, let's be honest.

returning to boston

just last week i was listing reasons to a friend regarding why i don't want to return to boston....but today i wanted to list some reasons i do want to return to boston, because, let's face it...i'm going back.

erin: my best friend from college now LIVES in boston, a mere 25 minute walk from me. and her beautiful baby. and her wonderful husband. so really, i cannot wait to be reunited with her.

janae: she has returned from the homeland and will be on the same coast with me, finally! i will be able to see her so often, it almost makes me cry, because i have missed her so much.

paul & lisa & nick: i miss them.

cambridgeport: this lovely neighborhood will be home to me soon enough. besides my excitement to live with my two new roommates d&s, i will also be in the most perfect location...25 minutes from erin, a short T ride from paul at work, paul & lisa & nick at home, close to central/harvard/porter squares, close to my new favorite used bookstore, relatively close to bu sargent, close to the river....ah, i am so excited to walk by the river.

new friends in boston: i miss them too! i want to see them all.

fall in boston. leaf-peeping on the kangamangus highway.

winter in boston. the patriots. gosh, i love football. oh! hockey! bu hockey games.

the bu pub. the sam adams brewery!

the t...i miss you, T! your crowded, overly warm rides...oh how i miss you.

Remade.

You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade.

run in the night

Janae just sent me this song and I really wanted to share it.

The line "You formed my knees to bend" really struck a cord with me. Just recently I've been praying to ask Christ to refresh my passion for prayer...it's been dulled over the years, so I've been asking Him to form it for me. This line spoke to my soul...

I know who I am
Once I was nameless, alone and you found me
You formed my knees to bend
You call me Beloved, I am perfection

All my failures won’t condemn me
Or leave me paralyzed and bound
When I’m at my worst
Your Love, it finds me first

By you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night

For I am such a man
Seized by the power of a great affection
No matter where I am
Peace spreads below me in every direction

When evil sets the war upon me
I won’t stumble, I won’t fall
Though they do their worst
Your love has found me first

For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night
For by you, I can run in the night

Hide me in the shelter of
Keep me in the cover of
Lead me in the light of your love
Hide me in the light of your love

No matter where I am
Whom shall I fear
Lead me in the light